Fortunetelling

Suppose you were watching a movie that you don't know the ending to yet. What you do know, however, is that your favorite character is gonna die later in the movie. Would you avoid liking the character in order to spare yourself the heartbreak? Or would you enjoy the movie anyway and suffer while you watch that character die?

Most people would rather enjoy the movie as it is, rather than making pointless calculations like I do; but... if you could have known the pain beforehand, which, I tell you, hurts really, really bad, would you really not avoid it altogether...?

People come and go. It's a natural fact.
Some, you told yourself, will never leave. Oh but they will, when the time comes. It may take years, but eventually they will.
Some are just like farts, you know. Leaving as fast as it comes, leaving behind just its nasty smell for you to remember.
Others, after spending quite a lot of time with you, just suddenly go without notice, like suddenly dying in a car crash, or just left outta town without an explanation.

You really can't guess when or how they're gonna leave, but you do know one thing: they will.
Nobody can promise forever.
Forever does not exist.
But knowing that, you still watch the movie.
Why?

Because you can't live life without taking any risks, ne? Or as they say, don't fall in love if you don't want to experience any heartbreaks.
Because there's no shades without the sun, there's no light without the dark. There's a yin to every yang, and such is life. A coin with two inseparable sides.

Just...sometimes...I would love it if nobody goes away. (Oh, don't we all.)

The reason I'm writing this is because right now I can feel that the time is growing nearer. It's so close, I can almost taste it. And frankly...

...I'm terrified.

You see, I have this feeling that a particular someone whom I dearly love is going to get out of my life. It's just a really bad feeling. I pray that it's not a life-or-death thing, but rather an end-of-relationship thing--even though both are equally terrifying. I can feel that he's already one step out of the door, and nothing I can do will change his mind from going away.

Our parting won't be pretty--I suspect there will be frowns and tears... and once it's over, nothing will ever be the same again... Oh God, why am I getting these kinds of feelings?

Am I overthinking things? To be honest, it feels kind of out of place and strange, since right now nothing's amiss. No kidding, we're just fine how we are right now. So why this, all of the sudden?
I really hope that it's just a nasty thought flying by, just a nasty thought that will never, ever, happen.
Dear God, please let it be that. Please. It's just silly old me with negative thoughts, please. Please.

But dear me, people come and go, ne? People come and go, what can I do? T-T

I can't stop the flow of time.
I can't freeze it and play it how I want.

When the time comes, it happens. Just that.

Be it soon or late, we'll have to part ways, dear.

However much I hoped it won't be so.
I'll treasure every second of my time you, whether you like it or not.
You are just that precious for me.

If only you knew that.